A Mother’s Pain
Her heart knows what is best for the tiny life growing inside her womb. No matter what the world thinks of her decision, she has to follow what is best for her son who is yet to breathe his first breath. She will never be there to see his first step or hear his first word, but she feels that the people who will stand in her place will cherish each thing her son does.
They will be there when he scrapes his knee or hits his first home run or to help him through his first broken heart. Her tears are not forsaken for they too understand just how much it breaks her heart to hand her son over knowing she has not the ability or finances to care for his new little angel she spent nine months caring for, feeling him move and knowing that the lump in her throat grows larger the closer to her due date that her body gets.
Her own life becomes an open book for she understands just how much her little baby boy will want to know and she feels that she wants him to know she did this out of complete love for him and not that she did not want to raise him. Her heart will always have a piece with him and with all that he may do, she will always love him and wonder if the little boy she sees in the store is her son or if he may be that one that is going to be the doctor that finds the cure for cancer or will he be the next sports star, but no matter what he will be she will always love him….
A mother’s pain, the hole in her heart that will never be filled for she followed her heart and did what her son needed…she gave him a loving caring home and still will love him forever for I love you my little angel boy…Gavin James
Love always and forever, “Mommy” Jennifer Bergerson March 2007.